big dummy head
that's who i am.
stupid.
expendable.
insignificant.
i dislike nearly everything about myself.
i want to change.
change is hard.
my birthday was yesterday.
it was shit.
a special day, or what was supposed to be special, didn't seem special at all.
it felt like a normal monday.
i hate expressing my feelings because people will just say i'm trying to get attention, i'm trying to be "quirky" and "cool", i'm trying to be "edgy"
i'm even contemplating posting this.
i know i'm going to post this. when i hit that publish button, i am not going to delete this post. i typed it for a reason and that reason is as unimportant as i am.
whatever, i'll be happy in my next post.